Jesus calls Judas Iscariot “the son of destruction/perdition” in John 17:12. John uses the Greek word apóleia, which means “destruction, loss”.
We learn in Matthew 27:3 that Judas was remorseful about or regretted his betrayal of Jesus, and he even returned the 30 pieces of silver paid to him for his part in Jesus’s condemnation. Why didn’t this save him? The Greek word used for regret in Matthew 27:3 is metamelomai, meaning “repent, regret, changed mind (for the different/good option)”. Although salvation begins with repentance, it requires more than feeling regret or what we might call ‘worldly sorrow’ (see 2 Corinthians 7:10). Unfortunately, Judas stopped at feeling bad and thinking he should have made a better choice; he chose ‘worldly sorrow’. There is a different word used for the kind of repentance that is leads to salvation or life (Acts 11:18). The Greek word used for repent is metanoeó and it means to “repent” but this repentance includes feeling remorse, thinking differently about your sin, turning from the sin and turning to God for salvation from your sin.
The repentance that leads to salvation is the work of God (2 Timothy 2:25), more specifically the Holy Spirit, which He accomplishes through conviction of sin (John 16:8). With this repentance, the saving faith that is a gift from God (see Ephesians 2:8-9) is granted. This God-gifted faith, which is also called trust, allows you to have complete trust in Jesus, as Savior from the sin that you repent of (John 6:40; Romans 10:9-11 ; Galatians 2:20). When you have this faith, you receive the seal or pledge of the Holy Spirit (Romans 5:5; Ephesians 1:13-14; 4:30) there is no doubt in you, for you know you are a child of God (John 1:12) and destined to eternal life (Revelation 21-22).
Nothing in the Bible says that Judas turned towards God and had any faith at all in Christ as the Messiah. Here’s another clue into the situation: Judas was trying to fix his sin himself by giving back the money, as atonement. This is an excellent object lesson: we cannot fix our own sin. We cannot atone enough for breaking the laws of God. Only Jesus can fix that kind of mess. See Matthew 27:3-10 and Acts 1:18-19 for Judas’s fate in the aftermath of his betrayal of Christ.
What the Steps Towards Salvation Looks Like
– You agree with God that you are not good and not one single thing about you is right. You hate your rottenness and your sins and you are honest about it. You stop making excuses or justifying yourself.
– You realize that you need Jesus to make you right by forgiving your sins, removing your sins from you, and reconciling you with God. You trust Jesus to make this atonement on your behalf and you turn away from a life of sin and of relying on your own judgment and will, and now you take up God’s ways, will, and life through Jesus.
– Not only do you trust Jesus for this atonement, but you are also grateful, you love Him more than yourself, more than anyone or anything in your life, even more than that old identity that you clung to, and you rejoice in shedding the ugly, old ways/sins you participated in before.
– The new you is at peace and filled with joy in God’s love, in His law and ways. You can trust Him, you trust in His promises and His Word, in every and all situations in your life.
Please note this does not mean your life is perfect (Matthew 6:34), that you are wealthy (James 2:1-6) you are happy all the time (the book of Job; John 11:35; 2 Corinthians 11:23-27; 12:7-10 ), or that you will never sin again (Romans 7:14-25). This also doesn’t mean Jesus fixed everything about you that you don’t like about yourself or wiped away all of your hurtful memories/made bad things that happened in the past not hurt anymore. Those experiences, memories, and hurts help to shape us, making us the person we are: this is how God uses us! God uses those bad things to make us useful for His purposes (see Genesis 50:20).